It's Spring and Love is in the Air

It's that time of year again. Birds are chirping, flowers are blooming. Our world looks absolutely beautiful and we are all just trying to take it in and spend some time outside in the wonderful spring air. Spring brings about better attitudes and outlooks on life because of the warm air and ability to get out of the house. Spring also brings love and emotions and boy has that been true in my world lately. I am surrounded by engagements, dating couples, and love in general. Boy am I lucky to be surrounded by so much love except for one small detail... I haven't found that love or companionship yet. In my emotionally absent world (most of you know by now that I am emotionally disabled lol) that causes a little bit of my heart to sink when I really sit down and think about it. There's nothing like the feeling of new love, first love, that wonderfully happy feeling that you get and puts a smile on your face and makes you glow. Luckily for me I am blessed enough to know that I have an amazing God who loves and cherishes me. His heart flutters when he thinks about me and He loves me more than any earthly man ever could. Even in my emotionally absent world my God gets into my heart like no person ever has, picks me up, makes me vulnerable and shows me that he is my king and I don't need anything or anyone else. Now this doesn't mean that I don't want to get married and live happily ever after because that is something I dearly want in my life right now. But what this means is that I don't need someone to completely and I don't need to get married. I will make a decision that I want to get married and I want to share my life with someone and serve God in a way that I never could alone. That is the hope and the future that my God promises me. I trust and wait patiently for his perfect and wonderful timing because He is my ROCK and I have laid my foundation in Him and in Him I find my strength and my peace. Thank you God in this chaotic world that I have you and that you give me HOPE beyond all others.