Blah

Lately I've been feeling as if everything going on around me is exciting but nothing that I'm doing is exciting. Have you ever had that feeling? I can't pin point it exactly but think it's a culmination of many things... I should be excited. I haven't worked in over 2 weeks, I had a wonderful Christmas with no drama which is a BIG thing, I've been able to travel and see some of my favorites but still I feel like life is going on around me but not in me. I know alot of this has to do with me and work that God and I need to do in and through me. I am excited to work on that when I get back to Lynchburg and get back into a normal routine.

The last sermon I heard in Lynchburg was talking about how I am a bigger part of people's lives and a bigger part of life and God's plan than I think and feel. He IS going to use me and has a much bigger and better plan that I can dream up. I need to trust more and plan less. Let Him work and stop trying to do it for him. I've trusted Him with some pretty big things lately and given them completely to Him and He has definitely come through in a big way. I should be able to use that as motivation to give him more and more but my mind doesn't often work logically. I have no reason to feel blah right now. He is more than enough for me and He is what lives in and through me and where my strength, heart, and happiness come from. More time with Him and getting back to the church that I have come to love and look forward to will hopefully help my heart and life to come alive again, feel the fire again, live life to it's fullest again instead of going along with the flow.

This morning we saw a license plate that was a good reminder of what to remember in these times... 1 Thes 5:16-18 "ALways be joyful, never stop praying, be thankful in all circumstances for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus."